In My Words:A Writer and Time -- Who's in Charge?
|Clutter is a sign of genius, right? Right?|
That, my friends, is an unretouched photo of my desk. If I'd "touched" it for the photo,you would be looking at some clean-to-the-extreme desk.
But then there would be no visual for this blog post.
I could give you lots of reasons why my desk is such a mess. I could confess there are times my desk is messier. I could claim genius status, hence this is merely a sign of that reality. I could reveal one of my nicknames: Bird of Paradise. My dad dubbed me that because he said he always knew where I was because of my droppings.
Ha. Ha. Ha.
There is one reason, and one reason alone, for such a messy desk: I don't have the time to organize it. I don't make the time.
Right now time is controlling me instead of me controlling my time.
When someone asks me, "So, how are you?" my standard reply is "Busy."
And it's true. I am busy. Some days it feels like my schedule has my by the throat and his hauling me through life, with the scenery whizzing by.
But here's the question: I am a professional writer.
Another question: Does that desk say professional to you?
Wait. I'm sorry I asked that. Maybe I'm being too harsh ...
Look, I don't think that I or any other writer has to live up to some Martha Stewart standard of organization. (Kudos to anyone who does. And you have a standing invitation to come over to my house and clean off my desk.)
For the last six months or so, I've realized that my schedule needed an attitude adjustment. I needed to confront it. Say no more and yes a whole lot less.
- I walked away from a non-fiction critique group that I loved. I'd been a member from it's conception--almost 10 years.
- I embraced (albeit with tears) when God directed me away from longstanding writing avenue in my life.
- I recognized tonight it's time for another no. The commitment is beneficial to me. But when I look at my priorities--writing my work-in-progress and my editing commitments--it's time to say goodbye to this too.